A battle i will never win .

Can i just run away from all these misery ?

FUCK YOU JOVEN UPSIDE DOWN!
-ken, cheer up! Happy also one day, sad also one day. Why don't spent it happily? And don't say me, cause i can't happy qi lai. You relax okay! Where's my mr smiley (:

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Jp with michelle , slacked , puffed. Meet clique for awhile after passing ken's present to him.

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Maths remedial. Aftermath. wx and mich head over to my home. Then sent them off and bought kfc. Real bored.

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Shall rot at home? Also not sure. Ask me out these few days please! I really don't want to stay at home, staring at the screen, thinking about hjl.

Saw your msg, was like omfg, you msged me! Read, really..speechless.
You: Erm . Sorry . I would't be messaging you from now on. ( since when did you msg me? ) Cause i had make a deal with my friend i wouldn't text any girl anymore . Because i want to jio a girl . Sorry . Takecare .

Me: Lol! Nvm ah. Also not first time. Byebye (:

Do you fucking know while i type those few words, how my heart ache? How my tears keep falling down? Its march 17 now, one more month to my birthday. I guess my x'mas wish would'nt come true. It will become my birthday wish . Really, i beg you . Let me off , just what did i owe you in the past. This fucking breakup can haunt me for 5months. I just wanted to numb myself from everything, how to get over you . Can you teach me ? But i think this will be better for us, although this is not i want. But i know one day, when we concidential meet when you have no more girls, you will contact me. I will just let fate decides us and I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS PAIN ASAP. Fuck . Bytheway, goodluck. You must get happiness ok, your happiness is the greatest gift for me. Must smile always ! (':

i wish i felt better, i wish i could let everything out.

P.S. Stop saying "you can tell me your problems / i can be your listening ear " or whatever shit. I apperciate your concern. But bottling up its just me, those feelings i just can't convey in words. And only some people i am willing to talk to, not all i can talk to. Thanks for the kindness anyway.